Showing posts with label relationship. Show all posts
Showing posts with label relationship. Show all posts

Thursday, August 2, 2007

I'm back

I’m back. Not only that, my computer is back. After two weeks of being away for repairs they found out that it works if I disengage the battery.
It’s very hot and I have the fan on and am thinking about getting another drink of water. There… I spent some time at the family cottage. It was so good. More and more of my family came to join me until they were all there except for an older grandchild who has a summer job. Twelve people, two cats and a dog. I have gained so many blessings from my recent break up. I am free to visit family. They no longer feel alienated. I am free to go back home to our cottage on the lake where I had spent my childhood. When I went east to Halifax last month, I was surprised that I had so many friends that reached out to me. In the relationship, my partner had dominated. People who felt intimidated avoided us both. I have taken back my decision making and there are choices that I never dreamt were possible. And, oh, how I loved being back at the cottage on the Lake.

Saturday, June 23, 2007

friendship

I had returned to Nova Scotia for a month to try and make a physical closure: lawyers, property, banks and messy details left over from a broken relationship that I had thought was of God and would last though eternity. I had prayed for years for healing. This was not the outcome that I had envisaged or that I had ever wanted. I came to doubt in a God who answered prayers, constant fervent prayer. I came here alone, two hours down the road from our former home. And friends sought me out, embraced me in their love and concern. Now I can see more clearly how the dominance of my former partner had put barriers between family and friends, and without this encumbrance, I am loved and cherished. This was never the outcome that I could have foreseen.

So to the dear friends that I never really knew that I had: my gratitude, my love and our future filled with light. Your reaching out, your concern, your assistance and your showing me that I am a person, separate and alive and standing alone is restoring me to the person that I was and am being created to be.